So I haven’t written anything in a really, really, really long time. I hate that. Writing is something I absolutely love!
God has really taught me a lot over the past few months. And I have so many things I want to write about, to be honest I don’t know were I’m going to go with this.
Right now, what is the one thing that everyone seems to be talking about? The World Series, right!? I love baseball! I love the Rangers! And of course, I love the Word Series! (Yes, I’m a girl and know just as much about sports as most guys.) But the World Series is awesome!...Even if you don’t like baseball and could care less.
The World Series brings people together all over the nation (and even the world..total speculation, I’m just assuming!)
The World Series takes place every year. We know that it’s always coming around at the end of October. We know that one team will walk away as champions. We know that pitches will be thrown, batters will hit, bases will be loaded, and runs will be scored. We know all these things will happen. However, there is a lot of uncertainty too, right? Like who will win? Will this batter hit a homerun or even a grand slam? Will this runner get out before making it to second?
I couldn’t even imagine playing on a team that was in the World Series! I’m a nervous wreck sitting on the couch watching! My mind quickly goes to the uncertainties of the game. I’m always thinking, “Oh, I hope he hits this one out,” or “Oh, he needs to strike him out.” Never do I sit there thinking, “Oh, well, someone is going to win this game!” You know what I mean? Maybe you’re that person too. Not a negative person. I just tend to automatically think and dwell on the uncertainties in any sporting event.
As I was watching Game 5 last night (Rangers won…just FYI!!!), I realized that dwelling on uncertainties isn’t just something I do in sports. I do it with everything.
School-grades, professors, tests and assignments. Extra curricular activities- time management, social life, showing my best….this list of things could go on and on.
I am constantly dwelling on all the uncertainties in my life. Things from a grade on a test a took, how the Aggie football game is going to go Saturday, or where will I go and what will I do when I graduate in a year. I let these things, big or small, sit on my mind and practically drive myself crazy.
But what I’m a forgetting? The most important thing of all: God is the author of my life and His story is so beautiful. He has a story for me, and you, that He has written just for us! How comforting. Knowing that the pen is in His hands and not mine automatically brings me comfort.
However, it wasn’t always like this. I never wanted to release control of my uncertainties to Him. When I confessed them over to Him, I always seemed to keep a few just for me. These were the areas that I felt I could write in my life. HOW STUPID!! I could write my life and decide things, or I could let the creator of the universe write it. You pick.
Someone told me something this summer that made me think. She said, “I wonder how hurt the Holy Spirit must be when we choose to make decisions on our own. I mean, the Holy Spirit is inside of us waiting and wanting and right there to lead us. But we continue to do our own thing.”
This really made me realize that I can’t dwell on all these uncertainties in my life. Yes, I might not know where I’m suppose to go after I graduate or how will win the World Series. But I do know that God knows! Take comfort in that.
Humbly yours,
His servant
