Sometimes the world fills our lives with lies. These lies
are distractions. Distractions have been EVERYWHERE the past several months for
me. I’ve been so distracted that I quickly forgot what I love- words.
Using words to make sentences that can channel emotions
while painting a picture of the gospel. That is what I love.
Stay with me as I quickly try to explain what life has been
like the past six months. These six months have been a season like no other. Filled
with learning new things and relearning things all over again. It’s been filled
with a new job, 18 hours of grad school, new relationships, moving towns, and
the list continues. After the newness of the change settled in, I quickly
realized I was doing what I always wanted to do- have conversations with girls
and show them their beauty and worth in the King.
How blessed I am that the Lord graciously put me in a place
where I do this daily! This season has been a blessing, but it’s been long. The
tiredness marks every area of my life. I cannot put into words what it feels
like physically, mentally, emotionally or spiritually.
Although the foundation of this season is blessings of where
the Lord has put me, the walls are marked with tiredness, weariness, and
restlessness.
I look back over seasons that I’ve gone through and not one
can even compare to this season. When we’re tired physically, mentally,
emotionally and spiritually, it is so easy to not lean as much on God as we
should. Prayer times become less, reading the bible becomes routine.
This is weird though, right? In the season when we so
desperately need God for strength, endurance, rest we spend less and less time
with him. Why? Distractions. The world is throwing and pounding us with
distractions that need our attention immediately. Why? Because for many of us
these distractions can quickly be justified as ministry.
Many of them are ministries, and that’s not a bad thing. The
Lord puts us in particular places at specific times for a reason.
Seasons can be long. They can be wearing to our bodies. In
the tiredness and desire to rest when I so quickly get distracted from resting
in my Father, one thing remains steadfast through the season more then anything
else.
God is still on His throne. He is still king. I am still His daughter.
Remembering this doesn’t automatically give me the energy
and strength I need. But it does redirect my hope. It reminds me to live for
grace and not perfection. It brings me back to resting in His word and at His
feet.
I don’t know how long this season will last. I’ve
continually been reminded over the past several months that I need to rest
because Jesus rested too. And yes, that’s true. But remember how Martha wanted
everything perfect before she went and sat Jesus’ feet with Mary? Well, that’s
what I’ve been doing- trying to get everything perfect so then I can rest.
Perfection isn’t coming. That’s a very hard reality for
someone like me to grasp.
So for the reminder of this season, however long it may be, these
words will always be true-
God is still on His throne. He is still king. I am still His daughter.
Many of the conversations that I have daily with girls show
our desire to be perfect. Perfection wears on us. Never will we achieve it
here. In our mess-ups, tiredness, weariness, when our perfectionism just isn’t
happening, He gives us so much grace. Praise Him! Because guess what is still
true in that?
God is still on His throne. He is still king. I am still His daughter.
Seasons are long. Seasons are tiring. But praise HIM for
blessings! Praise HIM for grace! Praise HIM because He is still on His throne;
He is still king, and we are still His sons and daughters!
